SSC 2010

Last week I was able to go to GA with some very dear friends for the (usually) annual SSC (Southern Spanking Conference). I wasn’t able to go last year because of its occurrence being sandwiched in somewhere between my nervous breakdown and my separation from my husband. I almost wasn’t going to be able to go this year due to work but thanks to my impromptu quitting that job I was able to make the trip and see all my favorite spankos.

The first two days of my unexpected vacation involved travelling. I didn’t have to almost any of the driving so I mostly sat reading or listening to my eclectic collection of music. There was some conversation but the nice thing about traveling with three other introverts, the comfortable silence.

At SSC 2010 I was able to fulfill one of my fantasies of being spanked by a female Top. I met her at my first ever spanking party (SSC 2006) and haven’t seen her for two years. So, I was pleasantly surprised when she said she was a Top now and did I want a spanking?

The one thing that caught me off guard about this year’s party was my own emotions. I have been coping with my separation from my husband, what I feel to be, rather well. So, when everyone started showing up at the main house and I began to get teary, I bolted for the nearest bathroom and closed myself in there until the feeling passed. I effectively did this twice without anyone seeing me or my teary eyes.

The thing is I met all my spanko friends with E. The problem was that I began to obsess and worry that these people were secretly thinking things about my decision to leave E. So, I began to worry and become anxious. Then when A walked in and asked where E was I completely lost it. There was a surreal almost comical moment when after A asked where E was I could FEEL Sarah behind me doing one of those panicky waving “don’t say that” sorts of gestures behind me. I hate crying in front of people and so I wanted to run and hide but she wouldn’t let me.

At first I was upset that I wasn’t being allowed to run and hide. However, in the end I am glad she didn’t let me. She really helped me put some things into perspective over the weekend. It can be difficult for me to talk about things. If you’re a regular reader you know that one of my weaknesses is sharing my feelings with others. Especially negative feelings that I feel would bother or hurt those with whom I am sharing said feelings.

I found myself surrounded by this most amazing support group. I don’t think I’m worth much of anything. I often question why people call themselves my friend. I am shy and withdrawn and suck at some of the more outgoing social skills such as returning emails and YIM and actually answering my cell phone when people call me or returning phone calls when people leave me voice mail messages.

Yet, here I was. Surrounded by people letting me know that they were willing to help in whatever way they could to give me the emotional support that I needed. It blew my mind.

After I stopped crying A offered to give me a spanking and I took her up on the offer. The spanking got pretty intense and I could feel myself on that cusp where if I let it continue I was going to break down into a sobbing pile of spankee goo. So, I asked her to stop and if we could play privately the next day and she understood and agreed. The next day (Friday) we did play privately (with another female Top) and I did have one of those emotional releases where you let go of everything you have been holding on to but up until that moment have not been able to release in any other way. We were able to have a chance to get in a similar spanking scene with just me and her on Saturday as well.

On a less serious note, Publikk gave me my first spanking of the weekend on Thursday. Of course it was solely based on a completely bogus charge of aiding and abetting and was only brought up because I was trying to make Suzie and Amber take responsibility for their actions. They both were acting horrendously in a convenience store giggling over, of all things, Mike’s Harder Lemonade. However, I must grudgingly admit that it was a wonderful spanking and a very nice way to start the party and the weekend off. He was pleased because I remembered to bring the Jokari knowing that he was going to be there and how much he fell in love with that particular implement the first time we met at FMS. So, any BG intentions on his part were tempered by how sweet of an angel I am for remembering such things telling him he had free use of the Jokari throughout the entire weekend.

I got two VERY lovely GG spankings from both Todd and Rich on Saturday. Sort of like yoga meditation only while lying over someone’s lap. I was so happy to be able to play with both of them. They are two spankers with whom I have been at the very same party for more than one day and we still miss the chance to play together. So, Saturday I had them at the top of my dance card and wasn’t going to let them get away without spanking me. Though they both seemed to be of the same mind and made it a point to collect on their respective IOUs.

Saturday was also the night of the school girl role play. I can take or leave role plays. Though, I have found that once I get into them I really do have fun with them. I wasn’t originally going to participate in the role play but A came over and TOLD me I was doing the role play and then escorted me to my borrowed skirt and ordered me to change into it. Ok, I can be persuaded when I want to be.

After I changed into my skirt I was sitting next to Amber and decided to start acting up and taught her the “Fuck Fuck” song. That got me moved to the other side of the room by myself. I realized that I needed to pee and asked A if I could go “wee wee.” She said no and so I waited until her back was turned and bolted for the nearest bathroom. When I got to the bathroom Kat was in it and so I had to wait a second for her to come out. I thought I was going to get caught waiting but I was able to duck into the bathroom before A came down and started knocking on the door and demanding that I come out.

I finished my business, washed my hands, opened the door, and there was A standing in front of the door holding her long pine paddle with the holes in it. So, I did what any self preserving bottom would do, I slammed the door in her face. She started counting, informed me that I didn’t want her to get to 3, and I didn’t want to take the risk so I opened the door and came out of the bathroom.

I was immediately escorted to the nearest table bent over and given three, unnecessarily hard swats with that evil thing. When I stood up I saw Kat and Publikk standing there watching. So, I looked at Publikk and asked “What the hell are you doing watching?” A responded for him by grabbing my pony tail and pulling me back over to the table and paddling me until I apologized to Publikk. Which only took 2 swats but HE had to chime in that he didn’t think it was sincere enough so I got another hard swat and had to apologize again!

Finally the actual role play started and it was a lot of fun. Kat and Amber were cracking me up with their antics as was Adelina. I learned a lot from them and will have to improve my technique in future role plays. I particularly enjoyed Kat’s Master Dick portrait of Master Rich the foreign exchange Headmaster brought in for his spectacular caning skills. However, no one taught me as much as C and her pink hair, black lip stick, and totally awesome attitude. I can only aspire to be that awesome in a group role play like that.

SSC 2010 was absolutely amazing and I am so glad that I got to go this year. I can’t wait for the next opportunity to be with all my dear friends again. Sometimes it’s nice to be reminded that there are people who care about you out in this crazy world. Even if you are being a butt head and forgetting that fact because you are so wrapped up in the negative things that are going on in your own life and letting self pity get the best of you.

Cyber hugs all around!!